❀ About Me ❀
Name: ぇや 「LEYA」
Age: 18
Gender: Female
Interest: Anime, Games, Kawaii things 🌸
Hey I am Me, just Me. . . Stupid Leya trying to get over life and doing weird stuff in the world wide web. I am trying to find my self and get over the fact, that I have no rights in the most contries of the world ヽ（≧□≦）ノ thats just cause some white old mans trying to say how I have to life!!! Well white old man: "Fuck U ;D". Btw just telling my english is really bad but on this site I absolutly do not CARE!!! I am programming stuff but this site is manly AI cause I am lazy af. xD Just clap in ur hand if u lazy too ;3 welcome in the club babe (✿◕‿◕✿)
❀ Buttons ❀
Here is my button ;3
And here are some sites I love:
❀ Helping stuff ❀
Well I am born in a cursed body some stupid mf's would call boyish but yeah.. will change that no doubt. Cause I know I am not alone there I have some stuff for you here. Not really Links or something like that cause it really depends in with country u are yeah but some emotional support （。＾▽＾）
I have a Pinterest u can look at, all pins are cute ig and yeah I love Vollks dolls ;3 But do me a favor and do not look into "私です" If your psych is as broken as mine <3
My pinterest name is "LeyaLike" so just search for it. Pinterest loves to take down my accounts cause fuck yeah..
Also there is a YT Channel I can recomend to you "@llx_o.o_x" but I have to warn you, these videos are cute af and all that stuff but sometimes really deep so just keep that in mind: dont watch if u are in one of there times where the world feels like everything is fricking stupid and beeing alive is not good u know these times we all hate and have sometimes (or atleast I have these qwq)
I also would recomend u some cozy games or something but Me stupid manly playing R18+ games so me is not good in recomend anything worthy in that topic.
If u are searching a good fricking Discord "gg/cutesy" is nice. Me not really using that DC but the posts in the "vibes" channel are beautiful.
Well I know my 'Helping stuff' is not that great but at the and of the day just remind: U are valid, dont listen to some white old stupid just listen to me (p≧w≦q)
Some sounds u can listen to:
Beware, that you allow YT to analyze ur data if u play this songs <3
❀ Diary ❀
I created this webpage a long time ago but till now there was only random nonsense, now I will post more content here..
just think about that like a open diary. Probably that will help me finding me.
Me wasnt usefull today. I watched youtube the whole day and idk what else. Bought some snacks with my dad >//<
I fricking love Milka its so sweet and hugging my mouth ;3
My parents are upset with me cause me stupid wasnt talking with them the whole day but idk I dont felt like cause wtf should I tell them? "Oh hey its me, whatch doing today?"
Not a fan of that kind of nonesense (⊙_◎)
Probably I should do more tomorrow, I still need to do some work done for school.
Also to bring that topic up, Me dont know what to do cause I have no one. My 'friend' is ignoring me and I dont have somebody else ~(>_<。)＼
So I plan for tomorrow to do some work for school and idk what else.
Btw I should think about some good way how to pull things into this cause its stupid to write that stuff in html..
Me now need to go sleep cause its actually 4/17 already but I will set the date to yesterday cause it does not feel like 'tomorrow' if u know what I mean (⊙﹏⊙)
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04/16/2025
Me didn't do something useful totay. I slept till 12 and than worked on my website.
Found a nice gaming monitor and bought it but me not sure if money send correctly I just can hope.
Rest of day watched yt and yeah I didn't do anything for school as I wanted to. Me stupid.
Now it's night again, even later than yesterday and I need sleep love u all please rest well.
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04/17/2025
Today I had psychical problems again ┌(。Д。)┐ but Me still alive so all right ig. I didnt do any great stuff today tho. I played Phasmo with friend and died too often (⊙﹏⊙)
My Uncle said something about my hair again and I wasnt able to speak after that cause yeah mind fucked. Also my mum told me Me need to wear some boyish shit clothes on last school day ... spoiler, I would rather kms than doing that (* ￣︿￣)
Apart from that bs the day was ok would say. I still need to do school stuff cause I am silly and didnt do that today too ヽ（≧□≦）ノ
Watched new Season of Last one laughting today with fam, was funny till my mind got fucked and me wasnt able to watch that.
Well wish u great end of day and I hope I dont have that much of psych bs tomorrow.
( o=^•ェ•)o ┏━┓
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04/18/2025
Today I woke up relativly late but I dont care (●'◡'●)
Didnt do anything for school today again, lol. Me watched my favorite TV Series Fire and Flame (Feuer und Flamme).
Also me did my clothes because the mountain of these got bigger and bigger over the last days.
Asked my dad about psychatrists and now he thinks I have fear of teens and therefor need a place (well, I do have a fear but thats not the case u know ;3)
I thought about a sec to tell him the truth but yeah I did not ~(>_<。)＼
As always, love u good night （。＾▽＾）
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04/19/2025
This day felt so useless. Could have just skipped that day and I wouldnt be sad about a second.
Yeah It was easter Saturday but tbh I absolutly DO NOT CARE about Jesus or something like that. ┌(。Д。)┐
Saw the fam of my dad once again, droved to his fam with my own car (nearly empty after that, driving electric is risky on god)
I hate days like this cause everybody says "Ow our boy got realy tall, aint he?" and I just hate that and would kill them all If I could.Of course not meant seriously!
Why does everyone try to assign me a gender that I don't belong to? Rest of day felt useless too so Idk wy I even woked up, why I am ̸̢͘A̴͇̕l̶̟̈í̷ͅv̴͍͝e̴̹͝?̸̪͛
I need to coming out so at least my parents stoping that bs. They would understand but I have fear of the unknowing (⊙﹏⊙)
The only good thingi about today is, that I now have enough sweets for the next days.
Also I added these cute "mood meters"
// Tried to remember how I felt the last days hope I got these right. (●'◡'●)
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04/20/2025
Today was not good but fine.
Me woke up really late. But to my own surprise I did a bit for school.
Also my mum gave me clear nail polish so I can make my nails.. That's nice.
Hope ur day was better than mine tho.
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04/21/2025
Was really tired this morning but day was ok would say (* ￣︿￣)
The company where I bought a new Monitor finally answerd my email (after 5 days) and my Monitor is coming the next few days ヽ（≧□≦）ノ
Also I were at a "Show"/Museum about Pompeji with beamers and VR headsets, that was quite cool but I had the feeling, that the driving was longer than the actuall stay at that Show. My Dad was like "Oh I payed sooo much we must be on time" .. yeah sure (✿◡‿◡)
Btw my mum sayd, that I now have to wake up around 11 o clock and therefor my mood and psych wont be the greatest the next days. I know what bad sleep does to me (⊙﹏⊙)
If I would sleep rn I would get ~8 hours of sleep, way too less sleep.. I will set the alarm for 11:30 ig .. hope my mom wont rage
BTW found a really nice game (and did nothing for school therefor). Its called "Night Runners" and the available version (Prolog) is free. U should try that Game I love it. Its a PS2 graphic JDM racing game.
So nighti night hope u sleep better than I will ┌(。Д。)┐
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04/22/2025
Idk
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04/23/2025
Today I worked on my School project a lot and its quite cool ヽ（≧□≦）ノ. Well I changed everything I planed but fuck it babe
My Mood is not the greatest today tho but I will survive it. Walking outsite was shit cause my fucking Mind wanted to jump in front of each car that passed me. That was quite annoying..
But to be honest, I dont think I would die if I would so its useless to think about.
But pls someone need to tell that to my brain so I can walk
along a street without these thoughts! (┬┬﹏┬┬)
But my new Monitor is great. Its finally on my desk and yeah babe. I mean 4k would be much better but fricking OLED babe (*^_^*). The colors are so colorfull I can taste them.
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04/24/2025
Well yeah probably I forgot to write in this Diary the last 4 days (⊙﹏⊙)
I worked on Saturday and Sunday. Today was first school day after holidays. Was fine, bit boring..
After school my parents got mad on me cause I raged cause they talked bs about what clothes I should wear on my last school day. Prob I should finally tell my parents that I am tans (┬┬﹏┬┬)
After eating I went to bed and sleept a bit. Now I watch a Video and play a Demo Game, than I will sleep till tomorrow.
Hope tomorrow will be better than today cause the day sucked (ノへ￣、)
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04/28/2025
❀ Some stuff ❀
If u have Ideas what u like to see on my website just write it to me. Discord name is 'yuistar'
Also I use some random pics of the internet.
If u want your pic taken down just write me mail: Ademi33 {at} proton.me
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